OK, I have a confession to make......

My arm/shoulder still hurts.

On Monday morning my arm did feel better. But it's not 100% better. Plus on Monday I still could have been drunk from Saturday. I had A LOT TO DRINK on Saturday......

Anyway I have a real problem when it comes to going to the doctor. It's not the doctor. I really like him. And he will write a prescription for WHATEVER I want. You can't ask for more than that really. But the whole process of making sure the kids are taken care of. Getting cleaned up beyond my normal day to day attire and God forbid, actually putting some make up on.... it all sounds like too much for me. So I avoid the whole scene.

Also, and now you're really going to think I'm nutty, I don't want to have to actually make the phone call to make the appointment. This is weird. But I hate the steps in between me needing a doctor and actually talking to the doctor. You have to call and tell them why you want to see the doctor. Then when you go and they escort you back to your room, you again have to explain why you are there. Is this really necessary? No person I talk to in between can write a prescription for me or order a test. I wish I could just call and talk to the doctor directly, with no in betweens.

But wait, there's more!!!!!! I have Plantar Fasciitis in my left foot. I went to an Orthopedic Surgeon who gave me a cup to wear in my shoe, a prescription to take twice a day and an exercise to do with my foot. Because his office is really close I actually went two or three times for follow up appointments. But you see, the cup only works in my tennis shoes and I don't wear those all of the time. And I could only remember to take the medicine once a day. Oh and that exercise, NEVER DID IT ONCE. We kept making follow up appointments and I would assure him that I would start doing what I was supposed to do. But I never did. So on our last appointment he was really nice but said something about not making any more appointments. I know he thinks there is something wrong with me.

I know this is weird. I would rather walk around in pain than call and make an appointment. So my foot has been hurting me since last summer. Now I've got the shoulder pain. I have a cough I can't shake that disrupts my sleep. And I've been taking this Effexor for a while that I'm really not crazy about (no pun intended) and would like to switch off of and yet I STILL WON'T CALL THE DOCTOR. So far the power of positive thinking is just not working for me. I tell myself all my problems will resolve themselves. God knows I've given them plenty of time to work themselves out. But it hasn't happened yet.

OK, so now I have really opened myself up to let you all know I'm whacko. My husband knows I must feel pretty bad if I actually ever suggest going to the doctor or the hospital. Now he on the other hand, is a whole other post. If I pinched him, we'd have to call an ambulance and administer CPR.